; have you ever really loved a woman

Aight, I'm supposed to be out shopping/ktv-ing with the girls, BUT nobody's texted or called me yet. I swear they're probably sleeping like pigs. -.- To think they were having fun teasing me and everything. Saying I WAS THE ONE WHO WOULDN'T WAKE UP UNTIL LATE EVENING. Take this suckers! Ahahaha.

Chain smoking cos there's nothing esle to do. :(

Lonely, I am so lonely, I've got nobody of my OWN!

Hmm. Sometimes I wonder how people perceived me. A smiley, I'm-so-happy-cos-life-is-going-so-well-for-me Miss Popularity? A laid back, just-let-me-smoke-my-life-away slacker? Or an aloof ice queen which I can be when the mood hits me? How many people will actually know that I've been surviving thanks to anti-depressants for the past two months? That I'm the original EmoKid who has terrible mood swings?

Sigh. Worried actually. I've decided to stop my consumption on anti-depressants without seeking the doctor's advice, I don't wanna get addicted or over-reliant on them. But without control of my moods.. So, it's up to my happy drugs(all you guys) to keep me smiling!